Is This a Dream?

"Somewhere a dog barked. With the help of fear and echoes and winter silences, that dog had a voice like a big bronze gong." (pg. 82, Kurt Vonnegut) This quote caught my attention mainly because it shows frivolousness. (Yes, I do like frivolousness in books). I can imagine a place that is a wreck after the bombing, the houses are destroyed, there is not a living soul, but that dog. Found in the middle of the street, that used to be a street, but heard like an anthem. That's the way I picture it, everything gone, although the dog is there, just like Vonnegut.

Anyhow, I was very surprised when Billy started watching that war movie. Its like a trauma that he developed. Watching it one time, okay. Watching it two times, weird. Watching it three, stop already. Its revives his past memories of what he had to live and the loudness of the silence, if there was any.

I still pity Billy. He has friends, family, money and love, I don't understand why he lives such a lonely life. He lives in flashbacks, not in the present, which is where he is. But its like he wants to escape from the present, where he cant remember things that sometimes are worse or sometimes are better than the present. His daughter got married, his wife died. Though "So it goes" won't make him live a less lonelier life.

That is why in some way, I am happy the Tralfamadorians kidnapped him. The only way to prove to himself that he is not crazy. That is the only way to make him feel that he is part of something, and that he is needed.

I would like to meet the Tralfamadorians too, that way I can also prove to myself that I am not crazy either.